The Best Song I've Heard while suffering from Chickenpox!!!

I lie awake on a long, dark night
I can't seem to tame my mind
Slings and arrows are killing me inside
Maybe I can't accept the life that's mine
No, maybe I can't accept the life that's mine

Simple living is my desperate cry
Been trading love with indifference
yeah it suits me just fine
I try to hold on but I'm calloused to the bone
Maybe that's why I feel alone yeah...
Maybe that's why I feel so alone

'Cause me…I'm rusted and weathered
Barely holding together
I'm covered with skin that peels and
it just won't heal
I am rusted and weathered
Barely holding together
I'm covered with skin that peels and
It just won't heal
No, it just won't heal no no no...

The sun shines and I can't avoid the light
I think I'm holding on to life too tight
Ashes to ashes and dust to dust
Sometimes I feel like giving up yeah...
I said, sometimes I feel like giving up

'Cause me…I'm rusted and weathered
Barely holding together
I'm covered with skin that peels and
it just won't heal
I am rusted and weathered
Barely holding together
I'm covered with skin that peels and
it just won't heal
It just won't heal

The day reminds me of you
The night hides your truth
The earth is a voice
Speaking to you
Take all this pride
And leave it behind
'Cause one day it ends
One day we die
Believe what you will
That is your right
But I choose to win
I choose to fight
To fight

'Cause me... I'm rusted and weathered
Barely holding together
I'm covered with skin that peels and
it just won't heal
I am rusted and weathered
Barely holding together
I'm covered with skin that peels and
It just won't...
Covered with skin that peels and
It just won't...
Covered with skin that peels and
It just won't heal


Weathered:Creed

You are the Hanged Man

Self-sacrifice, Sacrifice, Devotion, Bound.

With the Hanged man there is often a sense of fatalism, waiting for something to happen. Or a fear of
loss from a situation, rather than gain.

The Hanged Man is perhaps the most fascinating card in the deck. It reflects the story of Odin who offered himself as a sacrifice in order to gain knowledge. Hanging from the world tree, wounded by a spear, given no bread or mead, he hung for nine days. On the last day, he saw on the ground runes that had fallen from the tree, understood their meaning, and, coming down, scooped them up for his own. All knowledge is to be found in these runes.

The Hanged Man, in similar fashion, is a card about suspension, not life or death. It signifies selflessness, sacrifice and prophecy. You make yourself vulnerable and in doing so, gain illumination. You see the world differently, with almost mystical insights.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

The world is one freakin’ oxymoron!!

Why else would there be global warming, when in the end of it all, our world would go back to the ice age?

Why do some people who apply for a job online password protect their CVs???

Why do people say,”Act naturally?” I mean how can one ‘act’ naturally???

I read a line in some newspaper… “The BMC ...is organizing…” -BMC and organizing??? seriously!!!(Btw, the BMC is Mumbai’s Municipal Corporation)

I was discussing some finance with my friend, Xau… and I came across the term “Tax Returns”…. Returns?????

Some years back, I had gone to inquire about some computer courses. The lady counselor took us through a few courses…”This (course) is for beginners, while this course is for advanced beginners”…Advanced beginners!!! I mean, if you are still a beginner at the advanced level, you really are at the wrong place to learn…

How can one justify “expect the unexpected”? If you did so, it wouldn’t be ‘unexpected’ right?

I also read in the newspaper the other day that a Fashion designer was planning to launch his new range of clothes…

Clothes!!?? Are they really clothes…???
I mean some of them can’t even be classified as such!

Fashion Clothes!!yeesh!

Diet Coke anyone???

Geez… What an oxymoronic life!!

Motivation!

Hello there…

Motivation!

It’s really amazing to notice, in a person, that when he or she is given some encouragement that person’s performance increases. I know it’s a sorta clichéd statement, but hell ya its true….

Employees have to be treated well…no matter what position he’s in; be it a peon in an office or a colleague or even someone who irritates the hell outta you..

Understand what an employee wants… That, I feel is an important HR function…

Coz if an employee is not satisfied there’s gonna be lot of things a Manager would have to be worried about. Take away the employee and the boss is just left with a couple of machines in his office…

I know it’s the most over rated line, “Motivate your employees for better results”…But unfortunately that’s the action most under performed by many bosses!

So before you set out to motivate an employee, understand him/ her… Understand what makes him tick… what are his SWOTs…. And then proceed to motivate…

For eg-You can’t offer a pukka gujju a lifetime supply of non-veg food as a means to motivate him. And even if you do and he accepts it, there’s something definitely wrong in what’s going on!

So proceed with caution… every person is different, has different needs, customs, way of living, etc…

Cheers!

“Silence Violence”

My mind speaks a thousand words….

My heart speaks a million….

Yet, still, nothing is heard….Why,I ask???

I can hear what they say…. Why can’t everyone else?

Am I going mad….????

Am I going Insane…????

WTF’s goin’ on?

High decibel screams pierce my ears…. Yet you still hear nothing?

Then, after my moments I realize….

I’ve said nothing yet…..

And I was thus heard….

C & E

Hello...

I went through an article in some newspaper in the ‘raddi’ the other day….

It was about the bus carrying pilgrims that crashed over the ravine near Nashik…

The ones that survived and/or missed that ill-fated bus said that they were blessed by God…

Good on you, but…….does this mean that God betrayed those who died in that crash?

Shouldn’t he be blessing everyone especially since they were on a pilgrimage?

Does this mean he was playing with the people? Things like, “Whoever prayed more to me shall survive…the rest shall die!”

Personally, I don’t think God would work that way….

So, in retrospect, I believe that the real reason those people died was because the other people had to live. Karma including. They needed to survive to tell the world something or do something… what is it, even I don’t know… maybe they had to survive because God wanted me to write this article…

CAUSE AND EFFECT…

The rule which the universe works upon…

There’s no positive that arises if its negations aren’t felt…

If there’s no demand there’s no supply…as simple as that….

If there are no wars, there is no concept of ‘peace’….coz then the word peace would be just another word….

One more point; don’t fear death …. If you are scared to die, then it’s no point living….

Egads!!!

I used to have a nightmare... It was regarding a specific petrol pump at Tardeo...
I dreamt that while enroute to work , my bus would skittle and bang against the petrol pump engulfing everyone including me in flames... and somehow i used to see from the view of the 1st person,2nd person etc

Cut to today!

I was on my way home from work now... and I saw the petrol pump getting shut....

UPTO THIS POINT U MAY ALL BE SAYING "WTF IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN???"

and then I had this weird feeling saying ,"All is well"

Hope u understand what this means,....

Coz I have.... and its worth a million meanings....

The Second Coming....

I lost Round 1 at the age of 18....

I could lose Round 2 very quickly soon..

I didn't realise it the 1st time... but now I do...

I can lose...but I won't...

I died at 18...

But my soul refused to leave me...

Why??

Why...because,It still had life....

It refused to die...

Round 1 was over...Round 2 is heading to an end...

I died then...I can die now...

I die now...and that's it!

But I choose to win...

I choose to fight...

for my soul...

Who hung in there ...

when no one did...

when no one else cared...

when everyone else went away...It stayed....

I lose now,I dunno if it'll still stay...

May or may not...

don't think it has much strenght left...

Its my time now...

Redemption is a beautiful thing...

Don't make this ugly....

I know something that No one else does...

I know that...


"I WILL NOT DIE!!!"

Feelings of thought...

Life really sucks big time sometimes, doesn’t it? I mean one day, you have a really great day at work, and the very next day, you have the worst.
The fact that you had the worst day ever, really makes you angry while returning home.
You start muttering things. People passing you by think you are demented. Beggars who come up to you are given a very cold [arctic!] stare. You go home, and there are things which don’t work out….You curse God…. You even abuse the devil…. You abuse urself for some reason.
But really, how the sudden transition from a good day to bad? Is it over confidence? I dunno…maybe…
What was it that you did today that made it bad? Did someone say something (as and often the case…) Maybe yes….What was said?
By now hope u have realized that I had a bad time at work the other day…
….
Do you feel at times that U wanna just Run!
Not away from something or towards something….
But just run!!!
Not for a Marathon or for any competition…
Not for your girlfriend or for anyone else…
Not for any specific reason…. But yet, u wanna run..
Have you ever felt so??
…..

Sleep… man, is it good or what!!!
Sleep won’t be appreciated much by a lazy person…
Ask a person who works for 10-12 hours a day…Ask a person who travels everyday for work from Navi Mumbai to South Mumbai! Ask him, “Do you like to sleep?”
Ask someone who has crammed for his exams, slogged like hell and gave his paper with the fullest concentration…. Ask, “Hey, u plan to sleep later??”
Ask an Insomniac, “U wanna sleep?”

…..

Do you feel so frustrated at times…? Frustrated so much that you wish you wanna do something drastic??
Well, an advice for u then…don’t do it!
Instead just put on your favorite songs and chill off…
If that’s not possible, then go to a garden, beach or any calm place and just sit there and do nothing. Be lonely…
If u r frustrated at being lonely, acknowledge that fact 1st. Then use that time to understand yourself. You are been kept lonely for a specific reason; only thing is you just don’t know for what…
Introspect!!!
It isn’t guaranteed that you will bounce out of your phase… but at least you will understand why you are going through that phase. The solution to your problem then, of course, lies with you alone….
….
Life is that weird sensation that we have to live with….
One of the best things said about life is nothing!
Life doesn’t wait for you to get time to get back on your feet.
Neither does anyone else’s….
………

My friend had advised me when I was feeling very down….
“Don’t depend on others for your Happiness”

I add….

Don’t depend on others for your Happiness. No matter how large or small an influence they have on your life. You are a free entity, a free spirit. You were freed when you were born…

The most difficult thing in life is to let go of all attachments. I haven’t still let go of many of mine. Yet, I still try.

‘Fear is what keeps you prisoner; Hope is what sets you free’- Shawshank Redemption
Never a truer line!

Thank you my friend …. Ray of Light…
……


“I would never bother you…
I would never promise to…
I will never follow you…
I will never bother you…
Never speak a word again…
I will crawl away for good…
I will move away from here…
You won't be afraid of fear…
No thought was put into this…
I always knew it would come to this…
Things have never been so swell…
And I have never felt so well!
Pain...
Pain...
Pain...
You know you're right…
You know you're right …
You know you're right…”

Cheers!!

The Kolkata Sojourn..

The Kolkata sojourn.
Kolkata,The City of Joy....and its name ain't derived coz thee are Joydeeps,Joywants,and other 'Joys',I,too dunno why its called so.But after having stayed there for some days,I have an inkling why.
One of my best friends,a dear family friend,got hitched last week.The wedding was at Kolkata,for which we were part of..the 'baraatis'..

Nov 18,2007-The day of my CAT Exam.As I write this,I still dunno whether I did well or not,coz I still don't have my answer key yet.Anyways,no sooner the exam got over than I rushed back home to prepare to leave for Kolkata.I would be accompanied by my friend Aditya[Admiral Naikovsky!lol!].
Our train journey would last for 2 nights..we would leave on the 18th at 20:35,to arrive in Kolkata in the morning on the 20th.Some may feel that if I write,"I had a great time while going." it would sound oh-so-clichéd...Bad news....I did have a great time!
Accompanied by an executive from Standard Chartered Bank in south Mumbai,a Government official headed towards Nagpur for the Winter session,and a Gujju/Marwadi family with their kid so mischievous that his mom had to put him on a leash!well,sorta...she tied his hand with a cotton rope,so that he wouldn't venture far.
Me,Adi and the Stan Chart guy were discussing so much about Maharashtra Politics and where all the Govt has screwed up,it made that officer red faced.He proceeded to his upper bunker only to get down at Nagpur.
en route it was pleasant to see the different shades of India.It was my 1stjourney outside Maharashtra and it was an experience I won't forget.I heard people speaking 'shuddh[pure] Hindi' when we stopped over at some station in Chattisgarh.People were different,yet similair....

We reached Howrah on the 20th of November,early morning around 6-6:15.Our pick up car bore our surnames and the "PRESS" sign behind...That felt cool actually!

The wedding took place on the 21st,and even before the wedding,the ceremonies that took place leading up to the wedding were interesting...The "Aye Buro Bhaat" i.e. the groom's last lunch with rice as a bachelor,the "Totto"[pronounced "tot-tow"] which were the gifts sent by the groom to the bride and also which the bride sent,The "Bor Jatri",i.e. leaving for the wedding..the 'Baaraat'....The "Bou Bhaat" wherin the bride would have to prepare rice/food for the groom...in our case,however,the bride had only to serve the rice.The "Phool Shojye" ritual wherein the couple's bed would be decorated...

The day of the wedding,21st,there was a curfew imposed in Kolkata due to the riots caused by the minorities protesting against Nandigram violence and Taslima Nasreen...The army was called in for the 1st time in 15 years.It was indeed sad.Thankfully,everything went well for us as planned...

Steering away from the wedding now,I do have to tell you all that Kolkata is THE place to eat!Eat just about anything and everything that they have to offer...Be it the Chicken Rolls for Rs 15,The "Puchkas"[Paani Puri with a bit of an extra filling],The "Doodh Cola",i.e. Cola and Milk mixed in a careful proportion[Freakin' Good.....10/10 for that] Rs 40 for a jug[can easily be shared among 7 people]....All of it Cheap and in good quantity!And last but never the least-The Mishti!!
The sweets are effing good!The 'Mishti Doi'[sweet curd],Gulab Jamuns,Rasagollas[even Chocolate Rasagollas!],Sandesh...Oh Gawsh!!My mouth waters as i type.....mmmmm!!!

We visited the New Market and the Old Market area...They are very nice places to shop..Its like our Mumbai's Crawford Market mixed with Grant Road...where u get stuff of all sorts...
From Sarees,Kurtas and shoes to show pieces,Gifts and accessories,Its a great place to shop.Bargain properly to get good deals...you will save a lotta money that way...

We visited the Kalighat temple area.That place is just like Mahalaxmi Temple area,but there seem to be more shops in Kalighat.Its a haven for women who need accessories and house wear...Night Gowns for women start from around 50 Rs upto 100 Rs...The same ones u get in Mumbai for Rs 120+.

The Traffic!!!Its hideous!!!Compared to Kolkata,I'd say Mumbai has the best traffic!![well,that shows how bad it really is!!] I saw signs that read "Follow traffic Rules"...I thought "What rules???"Lane cutting,overtaking,rash driving...its normal here...
The cops would rather be at peace with themselves rather than chase a person who drove past by them in a rash manner.If You can drive in Kolkata well,you can drive in any damn place on earth!!...The buses are equally bad...they look like the Maharashtra State Transport buses,rickety of sorts...and at one moment of time,I actually wanted to hug one of our BEST buses.

What's Kolkata without the trams,the metro and the Ambasaddor!The trams,which quite a few ppl do take,is the slowest means of public transport.The Metro trains ain't much special coz like Mumbai its crowded...but I must acknowledge the fact that the Metro stations look jazzy and nice...Then the Ambassador...what the Fiat is to Mumbai,the Amby is to Kolkata..spacious,huge and royal,u definately feel comfortable in one...weighs around 1400 kgs...flipside?well,It ain't gonna earn Kolkata any Carbon trading points for stopping pollution!The amount of pollution it contributes to the environment,Its god to know that there are many trees and greenery still prevailing in parts of Kolkata!

Taxis are expensive...Rs 20 for 1.6 Kms-Basic Fare...the electronic meter looks complicated,but u get it after a few rounds...

The Building structures at Kolkata are evocative of the British style of Architecture.It s great to see such architecture in Urban area,not unlike the ugly modern stuctures which comply the urban concrete jungle.

PS:For those who were a part of the ceremony and 'other things'[snigger!!]...
What do you call a man who,
1.Had a voice so weird because of a sore throat,that people actually thought they were going deaf?
2.Instead of having breakfast with us,goes in the neighbouring group and gatecrashes their breakfast gathering?
3.cracks inane jokes only to laugh at them himself?
4.Gets his room door knocked at 3'o Clock at night 5-6 times?
5.Gets convinced that there was a murder down the street and the killer is on prowl,killing those who open their doors?
6.During the marriage reception function,he visits the groom and bride only once,has a 45 minute dinner,and then goes to sleep in his room...that too,when the function is just halfway through?
7.And then,just for kicks,he gets called down to bestow blessings upon the couple,when actually its not even required?
8.His eyes give that weird expression when he talks?
9.Wears a Green Shirt,White Pyjama,Red socks,and leather shoes to go to sleep?
10.Asks fellow passengers how the food was and laughs?
???

Lord Thousand Calculus....

Cheers!