What have I done?????

What have I done???????
Nothing..
What have I seen?
Nothing..
I don't know who bought me in this world...
nor my parents,nor the one they call "God"...
I don't know know my name...
I don't know my surname...
I haven't drunk tea...
nor have i drunk beer...
Never have I sat in a bus...
nor have I seen one...
Never seen a movie,
never heard any music...
Never had a haircut,
Never had a piercing...
I've never walked in my life....
nor have I run...
I've never held a toy,
nor have I seen one...
I've never played a game...
I've never gymmed...
I have never worn a tuxedo..
nor have I worn a suit...
I have never had a girlfriend...
But,I am not gay either...
I've never been depressed,
nor have I been happy...
I see nothingness in everything...
I've never cooked..
I've never washed my clothes.
I've never had anything sweet to eat...
nor have I got anything bitter...
I have never been to school...
I have never been to a temple,
nor a church,nor a mosque....
I have never sinned...
nor have I done anything good...
I have never spoken any Ill word...
nor have I thought of any...
I haven't seen anyone die...
nor have I seen anyone live...
I've never seen nature...
and I don't think nature has seen me...
Who am I then???
What am I???
Why am I???
Where am I???
Do you think I am a freak???
Do you think I am abnormal???
Do you think I am blind???

I am not blind my friend....
nor am I deaf and dumb...
well,my story ends now...
coz I see the person in white clothes...
standing by the light...
He's gonna come and take me...
take me to some one I've never seen...
O My...he's lifted me up!!!
what's that....I see many like me!!!!
Who are they???
Wait-a-minute...
I know who I am....
I am just born!

Where?

I started thinking...
Much to the dismay of my mind...
Here we go again,it said...
I wandered down the lonely road...
in the company of a million stars..
each one brighter,
but none dimmer...
the world felt fab...
I was high...
my drug was the beautiful night...
calm and serene...
Then...
someone screamed blue murder...
what was quiet was now chaos...
Felt I was back to Bedlam...
I was like a noisy mime....
Was there some parallel connection
of things i've never seen?
I was feeling ambivalent...
but how could I feel 'ambivalent'?
then I knew,
I was somewhere else,
somewhere other than here...
I saw below and I could see...
Powdered water...
Then...The silent noise grew louder...
it deafened me....yet I could hear
Screaming with utmost calmness,
I stopped it...
What happened to paradise I asked?
where was I now?????????????
Somewhat destroyed i felt....
I joined myself together...
trudging on through the beautiful road...
I realised...
no matter how aesthetic the road....
if u are almost dead,
It won't seem right
but somehow...
It seemed beautiful...
which told me
I won't die yet!
I ran,
I slogged,
I walked...
I came to the point...
where neither death nor life
could conquer me...
nor would I conquer them..
I had a choice...
Two paths....
dunno where they led...
I chose one....
I came out...
and I saw....


nothing!

Why?

When I lie down
I sleep awake...
I see the black light
shining with all its gloom
I run along the path of eternity
but keep getting lost..
Some call me dead
some call me alive
I am neither...
What is it with this world?
why do they do this to me?
they know i am being shattered
stabbing me thru my heart....
one layer at a time....
killing me with the utmost softness
killing me without sin
O'the sorrow
of being taken away
My soul,my soul
shred apart
with all the hate
yet I laugh...
a fanatic laugh
but no...
I still show sadness
yet I laugh?
Limitless boundaries
I soar across...
I find no one...
yet I find someone...
Something ,I see behind,...
Now it goes..
only to come back...
I see the light
Laughing with the misery of wretchedness...
come on,come in
says it,
I go in...
I see it...
It is beautiful,
yet repulsive...
I wanted to touch it....
I wanted to feel it....
I couldn't;
coz it was not there....
I walked down the path
It was a beautiful orange path
i saw behind...
It was now red
I saw to my left...
it was white
I saw nowhere..
and it was black...
music played...
It seemed Mozart...
but then,
I saw myself playing it
when the hell did i play the piano?
i looked again
I saw no one...
Music still on....
I thought there was Mozart...
I wanted an autograph...
But closer I came,
I saw it...
It was pretty now...
Yet ugly....
I turned around 365 degrees...
i dunno where the 5 degrees came from....
but then again,
I dunno where i was...
I thought I see God
but then,i feel psychedelic....
Psycho!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what's u saying to me?
I fall into a crevice
how did I fall?
I don't know...
I feel like i am ascending upwards
but at the same time...
I feel i am going down!!
I reach up somewhere
I wake up
but It felt real...
I then realised
I was sleeping Awake!
It all ends soon
but we want more
we want less,yet we want more
but in the end...
It'll all end...
Nothing remains...
yet,we have everything....
I dunno if it made sense to any one who's read this
I don't want it to...
coz this is what I felt...
The night I was
Sleeping Awake...

I HATE IT

I hate it when people take me for granted...when they treat me like a piece of shit.

The more I try to make people's lives better[or so I think!],I get the very same people making me worse.

My friend had said "Help others,and they'll screw you instead!"

How that's come true!

No one cares what the fuck I have to go through....

For them,its just another 'bakra'...a fat 'bakra' at that!

I am the way I am....

If you hate the way I act,sever all ties with me...

I know you all wouldn't care less....

I'd rather die in the company of people who are really close to me,rather than people who pretend to be close!

I loved my world...now I have a feeling of hate...

no...disgust!

The world won't fucking' care....

Leave me if you can't stay...

Don't stay too much knowing the fact that you are gonna leave..

My mind's flared up...

People who I thought were,weren't!

Enough is enough...

Its time for a change...

You are either with me,or against me...

I know your answer....

You know mine...

I know you..

But you don't know me....yet!

As I walk this path,

I don't need you...

nor your superficial heart..

I don't belong there....

I belong nowhere....

Just Leave me alone....

Live your Life....

Excuses,Causes...Reasons....

Live it out....

My heart died long ago....

what does it want now,your selfish soul?

I am weak....

But I ain't Dead yet!!!

[UP YOURS!!!!!]

" When all of the lights go out your body starts to tremble
There is a comfort in your soul that just won't leave
And I got a feeling I might not see you tomorrow
When all of the lights go out I see you in my dreams"
-Buzzhorn;Live again

" If I gave you my soul
Would it make any matter?
And if I broke all my bones
Would you put 'em back together?
If I gave you my soul
Would you see it, oh, my way?
And if I said I was wrong
Could I start on a new day?
Oh yeah

Now we get our ideas
When no words are spoken
Built it all up, now everything's broken
And deep down inside,
Oh, I'm pinned to the ground
When two people love without any sound
Oh yeah

So I gave you my soul, oh no
Gave you my soul, oh

So your life rolls along
For me it stands still
Say we're just friends, oh
But I never will
Now I gave you my soul
And now I'm no blinder (I can see)
When I look for my love that I'll never find,
Oh yeah

So I gave you my soul, oh no
Gave you my soul, oh

So I gave you my soul
Didn't make any matter
And I broke all my bones
They're laying all over
Deep down inside, oh, I'm pinned to the ground
When two people love without any sound, oh yeah"
-Pinned to the ground;Buzzhorn..

Rajmachi

I have just arrived from a trek to Rajmachi,and this trek has taught me a wonderful lesson-"Man,in front of Nature,is a nobody!"

Looking at the beautiful,lush green mountains,I felt a feeling of hope.Hope against what,is what I still have to understand.
Rajmachi is very famous fort near twin hill stations in Maharashtra - Lonavala and Khandala. Rajmachi fort is nearby 18/20 Kms from Lonavala but a nice way to reach the fort is from Tungarli Lake.Shrivardhan and Manoranjan can also be considered as two separate forts. There is one small plateau in between them. A temple of 'Bhairoba' is very beautiful. Shrivardhan is 'Bale killa' of Rajmachi.
It is almost 3000 feet high. But it was mainly built to keep watch on Konkan area. The other - Manoranjan is 2700 feet high.
Manoranjan consists of strong walls,3 doors and many water tanks. One can see Ulhas river, Dukes Nose also called Nagphani,Karnala ,Matheran, Mahuli and Bhimashankar.
The old caves of Kondhavi on Rajmachi fort are worth to see.The way to the fort is long but has a good view. One can enjoy the forest, Tungarli lake and many waterfalls along as well.

Two Forts were built by Shivaji Raja here-The Shrivardhan and Manoranjan forts.I couldn't help but marvel at them.Built 2700-3000 feet above sea level,I was just awed at the sight of them.
If we were huffing and puffing just to reach there,just imagine what would be the state and conditions of the people that lived around 2500 years ago,when there would have been almost no road to get on the top of the mountain.
The most beautiful part about Rajmachi is the place itself.Its very laid-back.Calm,serene environment..cool breeze...Its just amazing.The people over there are courteous and helpful.
There are quite a number of Houses that will accommodate you, The cost is minimal, and you get a good service.All houses in the village accommodate trekkers and provide simple meals, tea and snacks. The nachni bhakri, thecha (fiery chutney) and pithla (Maharashtrian speciality) are simply delicious.We stayed at Rajaram Umbre's house,his place being called as "Hotel Ganesh".
Respect the house rules where u staying. You are like a paying guest there.

check out our trek pictures by clicking on this link:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=4545&l=cb82c&id=503408278

I really hope that Rajmachi doen't get converted into a town or something like Lonavala.I am 100 percent confident that fellow trekkers who have visited Rajmachi will agree on this.
Rajmachi is a wonderful place.If any one does go there,marvel at that place and respect it.
Cheers!

TWENTY20 WORLD CUP...
A few 'Jais'[Hails]
Not in order of importance,but they are all important...

Jai Dhoni for being the great captain he is...

Jai Yuvraj..need i explain why?

Jai Joginder...Guts,glory and balls of steel..

Jai Sree Sreesanth for mentally[?] being at par with the Aussies and doing stupid stuff!!......

Jai Afridi for getting out early...

Jai Hafeez for dropping Rohit Sharma's catch and sending it for six..

Jai Harbhajan for givin 3 sixes and makin the match more tense[saala #$#%$%]

Jai South Africa for keeping the Indian population!!

Jai Misbah for playin a sick shot...

Jai Viru for not playing the game...

Jai Gambhir...75 runs..top score...

Jai Irfan...3-16,baap bowling!!

Jai Yusuf... just for hittin the six of Asif!!

Jai Rohit....Mumbai's khadoosgiri;in the flesh!

Jai Uthappa...for having a delightful last name,and creating the turning point of the final!!

Jai RP....top wicket taker...and bowled marvellously!!!

Jai Agarkar....for not taking further part in the tournament!

Jai Mark Benson...for letting Imran Nazir know he can't get a runner,and thus pressurising him....heh heh!

Jai Akmal,their wicket keeper...for having an annoying voice behind the stumps,which annoyed every Pak fielder no doubt!!

Jai Shahrukh...Just for being there..

Jai Sharad Pawar...for announcing 2 million bucks for the players... I know i won't get any,but hell happy for them...

Jai Prasad...for having a tiff with Mickey Arthur[SA Coach]...and for developing our bowlers!

Jai Robin...Fielding coach...great job!

Jai Rajput...our Manager....I dunno what he did,but did a hell of a job!!

Jai Indian team support staff....physios,masseurs et al....great work!!

Jai Flintoff...for revving up Yuvraj!

Jai Broad....for being the the bowler whom Yuvraj screwed!

Jai Steve Elworthy for organising this tournament successfully!!

Jai Sachin,Sourav,Rahul for not playing!

Jai Zimbabwe...just for defeating the Aussies!

Jai South Africa....for the wonderful memories!!

Chak De India!!

The Real Deal...The Greatest Principle ever!

The Real Deal...My Management Principle[Foolproof]..results guaranteed!

First an Introduction:We have witnessed 100s of Management Principles throughout the years,Henry Fayol's 14 principles,Maslow's theory,McGregor's Leadership theory,to name a few.
All these theories worked in some situations while they seemed useless in some situations.Anomalies which arised during situations gave way to new ideas and principles.People who were smart wrote books about their theories[Many still do..] So even if that theory is redundant to our line of work,we still marvel at the person and say "Wow!He must be a genius".Of course,people like Mr. Peter Drucker[and even after his death] were all time Management geniuses.But its people who were one-off wonders that got the world pissed off...coz they never updated,upgraded or even ameliorated their so-called 'Principles' that they put forth.So we were stuck with some quondam theories which,even if we study them till their very end,may or may not be beneficial to us in the long run.Hence,the returns aren't guaranteed.
Of Course,many purists argue that these principles form the base of Management studies.I have not yet got the opportunity to study in a Management school uptil now,but I do have some knowledge of various Management theories.Agreed that they are the base for Management studies,but if knowing these principles was a criteria for being a great manager or say,an entrepreneur,would we have ever got personalities like Mr.Dhirubhai Ambani?

I may be going on a different level here,for which i don't think i should apologise you...[Heh heh!!] ...

I am not against Management Principles in any way.I respect them.But my view here is that inspite of all that research that's gone in,all these years,why haven't we got THE perfect Management Principle.Many,including me to some extent,beleive in the Contingency approach of Management.For those incognizant of this theory,it means that everything shall be planned and be kept ready for a rainy day[read:Contingency] so that everything's taken care of when the situation arises.In case it doesn't happen,no worries.coz then at least you were prepared for it.But then again,Why spend valuable resources for things that may or may not happen?Even if the contingency doen't arise,valuable resource[viz. time] was wasted in its planning and execution.So there's no perfect theory as yet...Or is there?

Now,the thing which i actually wanna talk about:Let me get right to the point....After endless discussions with my brain[its a wonderful thing that!pity we use it scarcely],I came up with my own Management Principle.

It's a very flexible principle.Its application runs throughout the entire organisation level(s).No matter which Organisation hierarchy prevails in any organisation,No matter what flow of communication runs between the higher authority,middle and the lower level authority,this principle will work.This principle gives utmost importance to hard work and talent.If properly followed,the entire organisation's vision will turn into reality.Plans,which seemed unmanageable and/or difficult to work on-with this principle,results are guaranteed.Ninja Managers,Shoebox Managers,XYZ managers..Whatever-its for everyone!Higher authority personell who seem apprehensive at some things...look no further...follow my principle and reap rich rewards.
Some long term and short term benefits include:
1) Better returns
2) Higher task completion rate.
3) No overload of work to be carried forward everyday.
4) More people are happy around you coz you follow this principle!
5) And many more!

Waiting for it,are you?Well for $499.95 charged to your credit card,you can gain insights...aww hell just kidding!

Brace youself now..
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[Star Wars entrance theme..clichéd at any Indian Awards night!]
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My principle is called "JuDoYoFriJo"
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It ain't a Japanese technique if u are confused by the name...The name,btw,is the principle itself...coz "JuDoYoFriJo" stands for-

"JUst DO YOur FRIckin' JOb"
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Trust me,It works!

Hope it Clicks;If it doesn't,don't shoot me...think,why you should shoot yourself 1st..
Cheers!
(Another blog has the same matter...wonderful the way some people think alike!!!http://brfsstrategic.blogspot.com/2007/05/jdyfj-latest-management-fad.html
Do Check it...its good!)

Live Earth!

I know its kinda late....but was wondering what the hell were they doing wasting electricity and other resources at the recently organised Live Earth Concert,when in fact the concert's 'motive' was to save them....Weird,but true!I don't think any1 cared,but it was just another concert for the people...

orkut Blog: Namaste!

orkut Blog: Namaste!!
3 cheers to the Orkut Blog!!Hope Orkut bulids up from here now....cheers!

Creed....

I've been listenin to Creed since the last week or so,and am very amazed at the deep meanings of some songs i've heard...here are the lyrics some of their songs....
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'Bullets'

"Walking around I hear the sounds of the earth seeking relief
I'm trying to find a reason to live
But the mindless clutter my path
Oh these thorns in my side
(Oh, these thorns in my side)
I know I have something free
I have something so alive

I think they shoot cause they want it

I feel forces all around me
Come on raise your head
Those who hide behind the shadows
Live with all that's dead

Look at me
Look at me
Look at me
At least look at me when you shoot a bullet through my head
Through my head
through my head

In my lifetime when I'm disgraced
Jealousy and lies
I laugh aloud cause my life
Has gotten inside someone else's mind

Look at me
Look at me
Look at me
At least look at me when you shoot a bullet through my head
Through my head
Through my head

Hey all I want is what's real
Something I touch and can feel
I'll hold it close and never let it go
Said why, why do we live this life
With all this hate inside
I'll give it away cause I don't want it no more
Please help me find a place
Somewhere far away
Yes I'll go and you'll never see me again

Look at me
Look at me
Look at me
At least look at me when you shoot a bullet through my head
Through my head
Through my head *2x

Look at me
Look at me"
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'Weathered'

' I lie awake on a long, dark night
I can't seem to tame my mind
Slings and arrows are killing me inside
Maybe I can't accept the life that's mine
No, maybe I can't accept the life that's mine

Simple living is my desperate cry
Been trading love with indifference
yeah it suits me just fine
I try to hold on but I'm calloused to the bone
Maybe that's why I feel alone yeah...
Maybe that's why I feel so alone

'Cause me…I'm rusted and weathered
Barely holding together
I'm covered with skin that peels and
it just won't heal
I am rusted and weathered
Barely holding together
I'm covered with skin that peels and
It just won't heal
No, it just won't heal no no no...

The sun shines and I can't avoid the light
I think I'm holding on to life too tight
Ashes to ashes and dust to dust
Sometimes I feel like giving up yeah...
I said, sometimes I feel like giving up

'Cause me…I'm rusted and weathered
Barely holding together
I'm covered with skin that peels and
it just won't heal
I am rusted and weathered
Barely holding together
I'm covered with skin that peels and
it just won't heal
It just won't heal

The day reminds me of you
The night hides your truth
The earth is a voice
Speaking to you
Take all this pride
And leave it behind
'Cause one day it ends
One day we die
Believe what you will
That is your right
But I choose to win
I choose to fight
To fight

'Cause me... I'm rusted and weathered
Barely holding together
I'm covered with skin that peels and
it just won't heal
I am rusted and weathered
Barely holding together
I'm covered with skin that peels and
It just won't...
Covered with skin that peels and
It just won't...
Covered with skin that peels and
It just won't heal'
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'Higher'
'When dreaming I'm guided through another world
Time and time again
At sunrise I fight to stay asleep
'Cause I don't want to leave the comfort of this place
'Cause there's a hunger, a longing to escape
From the life I live when I'm awake
So let's go there
Let's make our escape
Come on, let's go there
Let's ask can we stay?
Can you take me higher?
To the place where blind men see
Can you take me higher?
To the place with golden streets
Although I would like our world to change
It helps me to appreciate
Those nights and those dreams
But, my friend, I'd sacrifice all those nights
If I could make the Earth and my dreams the same
The only difference is
To let love replace all our hate
So let's go there
Let's make our escape
Come on, let's go there
Let's ask can we stay?
Up high I feel like I'm alive for the very first time
Up high I'm strong enough to take these dreams
And make them mine'
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'My Own Prison'

' a court is in session, a verdict is in
no appeal on the docket today
just my own sin
the walls are cold and pale
the cage made of steel
screams fill the room
alone i drop and kneel
silence now the sound
my breath the only motion around
demons cluttering around
my face showing no emotion
shackled by my sentence
expecting no return
here there is no penance
my skin begins to burn
so i held my head up high
hiding hate that burns inside
which only fuels their selfish pride
we're all held captive
out from the sun
a sun that shines on only some
we the meek are all in one
i hear a thunder in the distance
see a vision of a cross
i feel the pain that was given
on that sad day of loss
a lion roars in the darkness only he holds the key
a light to free from my burden and bring me life eternally
shouldve been dead
on a sunday morning
banging my head
no time for mourning
aint got no time
so i held my head up high
hiding hate that burns inside
which only fuels their selfish pride
we're all held captive
out from the sun
a sun that shines only some
we the meek are all on in one
i cry out to god seeking only his decision
gabriel stands and confirms
ive created my own prison'
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Creed's songs do seem to have a religious ting to them,and many have criticised them for being so...but if we all understand the songs in each of our life's contexts,they'll strike a chord.

A brief History about Creed:(Source:Wikipedia.org)

Scott Stapp-Vocals, guitar
Mark Tremonti-Guitar, vocals, studio bass guitar on Weathered
Scott Phillips-Drums, percussion, keyboards
Brian Marshall (departed in 2000)-Bass guitar
Brett HestlaBass guitar (Touring Member after the departure of Brian Marshall)

Creed originally came together in Tallahassee, Florida in 1995 as Naked Toddler when Scott Stapp and guitarist Mark Tremonti, former high school friends, got together and started writing songs. They soon added bassist Brian Marshall and drummer Scott Phillips. Brian Marshall came up with the band name "Creed", taken from the name of his former band, Maddox Creed.

They then found work at a live music bar, where they impressed owner Jeff Hanson enough to let them play at one of his bigger venues known as Floyds Music Store on the Tennessee Street Strip in Tallahassee. Hanson liked the band so much that he convinced producer John Kurzweg to produce the band.

On June 4, 2004, it was announced that Creed had broken up. Stapp began the process of recording a solo album, The Great Divide, collaborating with Roadrunner Records recording artist Goneblind, while the other band members (including former bassist Brian Marshall) formed a new band, Alter Bridge, with Myles Kennedy. Touring bassist Brett Hestla has since joined the band Dark New Day.

Since Creed's disbandment, there have been many rumors of a reunion. The three members currently involved in Alter Bridge have stated that Creed is soley in their past, and will not reunite any time in the future. Yet Stapp maintains that Creed is an open book, and that he and the rest of the band have discussed reuniting.
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Alter Bridge's song 'Metalingus' is one of my fav songs...I didn't even realise that Alter Bridge had 3 ex-members of Creed.Alter Bridge clearly states that they aren't "Creed with a new Vocalist" but are a completely different group altogether..'Alternative metal' and 'Post-grunge' being its genre as compared to Creed's 'Alternative rock, Hard rock and Post-grunge'.Myles Kennedy(formerly of The Mayfield Four) is lead vocals and guitar for Alter Bridge.

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