Where?

I started thinking...
Much to the dismay of my mind...
Here we go again,it said...
I wandered down the lonely road...
in the company of a million stars..
each one brighter,
but none dimmer...
the world felt fab...
I was high...
my drug was the beautiful night...
calm and serene...
Then...
someone screamed blue murder...
what was quiet was now chaos...
Felt I was back to Bedlam...
I was like a noisy mime....
Was there some parallel connection
of things i've never seen?
I was feeling ambivalent...
but how could I feel 'ambivalent'?
then I knew,
I was somewhere else,
somewhere other than here...
I saw below and I could see...
Powdered water...
Then...The silent noise grew louder...
it deafened me....yet I could hear
Screaming with utmost calmness,
I stopped it...
What happened to paradise I asked?
where was I now?????????????
Somewhat destroyed i felt....
I joined myself together...
trudging on through the beautiful road...
I realised...
no matter how aesthetic the road....
if u are almost dead,
It won't seem right
but somehow...
It seemed beautiful...
which told me
I won't die yet!
I ran,
I slogged,
I walked...
I came to the point...
where neither death nor life
could conquer me...
nor would I conquer them..
I had a choice...
Two paths....
dunno where they led...
I chose one....
I came out...
and I saw....


nothing!